Solitaire

There was a man
A lonely man
Who lost his love
Through his indifference

A heart that cared
That went unshared
Until it died
In his silence

And solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him takes him down
And by himself it’s easy to pretend
He’ll never love again

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He’s playing solitaire

Another day
A lonely day
So much to say
Goes unspoken

And through the night
His sleepless night
His eyes are closed
His heart is broken

And solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him takes him down
And by himself it’s easy to pretend
She's coming back again

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He’s playing solitaire

A little hope
Goes up in smoke
Just how it goes
Goes without saying
Solitaire

And by himself it’s easy to pretend
He’ll never love again
Oh, and keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always end the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He’s playing solitaire

Solitaire
Solitaire

saw him again... and suddenly, my friend said

"hey, are you crying?"

water has welled up in my eyes :(

ARRGGHHHHH.....why did i have to open my BIG DAMN MOUTH!!!!!

"I can forgive, but I cannot forget, is only another way of saying, I will not forgive. Forgiveness ought to be like a canceled note -- torn in two, and burned up, so that it never can be shown against one. "

"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong."

Sacrifice

someone who sacrifice, is a strong person???
someone who do not sacrifice, is a weak person?
and how far, will someone sacrifce for someone else???

sacrifice for your family, dont want to lay a heavy burden on them??
how heavy is a burden??
not continuing your studies so that your siblings will have a chance on it???
not wanting to change your appearance so that your family will not have more debts???
not wanting to let your siblings get the blame, though it hurts you that you are being scolded off for nothing???

sacrifice for the happiness of others??
not wanting to fight, seeing your love goes off with someone else?
how MIGHTY is that???

laughter

Mr Bean....
a character which I will not see..but friends want to watch it, so ok lah, I follow.
he was stupid, selenge, boleh kasi 'heart attack' to the people surrounding him...
I had a good laugh.. after the movie, we kept talking about one of the scenes :0)

Titoudao
another interesting and excellent play...
Pamela Oei is good sihh....lucky for me, there is substitles, otherwise some hokkien words I dont understand...

RAIN

accompanied me last night.. when it was actually a sign of not to do what I intended to do...
human beings.... ...
Drizzle, accompanied me ...when I'm with a heavy heart and tossled thoughts... walking in it made me worst.. images and thoughts kept playing over and over and over....why do I feel so bad now???? It was not my intention to hurt ... that was a joke.. gosh!!! I am very bad in joking, ah???
Sleep has been eluding me for the past two weeks...
Appetite has left me for the past one week....
Now, I eat for the sake of eating..so that I will not get gastrics.. so that I will not fall sick...
This has not happened to me for a very LONG time...
Am I a bad person???

please accept my apologies...
yah, what has been said, cannot be taken back.. but..
sincerely, that was not my intention to make you feel bad...
now, Im the one feeling worst.....

please, please, please

I AM SORRY....

dont keep quiet ...

Im WORRIED sick now....

Choice or Chance

Life gives two gifts to human

One is chance

and another is choice

Chance to meet many people

and

choice to have a friend like you

true wordings...

up to us on the choice that we make

and the chance to make it happen...

Expression

what we say and feel will always give away...
isnt it??
our facial expression will tell the truth, though how much we try to hide
so, how good is this expression??
there is pros and cons ..
well, we are humans rightt.... without expression, what will the world be ???
i wonder.....

its funny how different people that have entered your life, willingly or not...
its funny how our path cross each other..though there are times when we hope it did not...
its funny when what we plan for did not materialise...
its funny when we just cannot fathom that the events happen, in a very unbelievable way...

MOSAIC Music Festival

so called opening act has Najib Ali "relak one corner".. decided to watch though i know that i be alone going... its no surprise anyway... since most of it, i am alone :0)was feeling hungry, decided to grab something to eat... and wa lahh.. i bought the peanut pancake with soyabean drink (very light dinner)
was sitting having my dinner and saw Ashraf Sinclair, the one who acted as Eddy in Gol & Gincu! He looks cute... 8pm, show start!!! And what an entertaining show it was.. had a really good laugh...saw my so-called cousins. went up to them and one of them was shocked to see me.. yah yah yah.... i know that i look bit different...
the performers for 10pm show - Imran, Siera, Dina and something method...

decision to go home was there..but decided to watch another performance outside

since i have 1/2hr more, i decided to buy drink.

oooohhh i just hate this cold drink bottle.. why is it so damn difficult to open it!!!! i slyly wipe my hands on my dress but still failed...was tempted to ask two policemen walking in front of me for help... but ....nah...let me try again...arrghh!!!!! i give up... who can i ask for help.. on my right, a chinese looking guy busy smsing... on my left, group of three guys smoking away and waiting....who who who....i am not a damsel in distress but this bottle really sucks man!!!

suddenly.. "you need help?" turned to where the voice came from, and he said it again.. willingly i stretched the bottle towards him and smile ;)

YAAAHHOOOO finally my throat is cool...

well... the guy said "sorry for being busybody but i cannot help looking" i just looked at him, smile and shake my head, no. he started asking questions and..being the ever nice, me, i introduce myself :) that got to more talking till the performance start.... eerr.. my thoughts was to leave after this.. but circumstances made me stay ....and i dont regret my decision...

Hopelessly Devoted To You

Guess mine is not the first heart broken,
my eyes are not the first to cry I'm not the first to know,
there's just no gettin' over you
Hello, I'm just a fool who's willing to sit around
and wait for you
But baby can't you see, there's nothin' else
for me to do I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide,
since you pushed my love aside I'm not in my head,
hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you,
hopelessly devoted to you
My head is saying "fool, forget him",
my heart is saying "don't let go"
Hold on to the end, that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide,
since you pushed my love aside I'm not in my head,
hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you,
hopelessly devoted to you

have always love this song, love the movie also GREASE!!!! olivia newton john and john travolta is so CUTE!!!! was surprised to watch it on tv!!! yahhooo!!! my tiredness and stressful day at work is paid off with this song.. :)

love found me when I was not looking


love left me when I was having questioning thoughts about it


love has not found me since


am I a love less of a person???


no....





love, not that I fear from it


love, not that I shun from it


love, is just, something that I did not search


have I given up on love????

love, is what I want

but, love, is not the same for two people





love, hope it finds me


love, without it, I will not be alone


love, for sure, is for the God Almighty


love, for sure, is what GOD gives to all of us

Retail Therapy

this always works for me...
really feel sooo goood after that....
bought 2 watches :)
then bought a beg....

was so proud of myself... really... the two watches cost me $150...
I knew one of the watches have discount...but not for the other one !!!
the salesguy was so shocked that I wanted both the watches...he never get this kind of customer?? HMMM... I wonder... well.. its ok.. hes kinda off cute and tall!!!!! he looks like one of my friend... :)

oh yah!!! this morning I met the cool, sporty guy that I have not seen for nearly two months!!!!!
siighh... he still looks GOOD.... he is not that handsome... he gives me the vibes.....
he always wearing bermudas or shorts ... only when the weather is MIGHTY cold, then he wore track pants...... dont know where he alights, but I know he board from Bedok ;)

well..... that's for now.. hope this is the last of my retail therapy... if not.....
fly fly away.... fasting fasting me....