Chinese New Year

first of all, i would like to wish the chinese people

Gong Xi Fa Cai

May the year of Pig brings you

Happiness, Health & Wealth

my days are spent at HOME!!! can you believe it ??? I did not even go out for the holidays...zilch...beginning of the year, the thoughts of going somewhere is there... ask around, some have plans, some not going anywhere... so.. here I am...

in the comfort of my room/home...but, hey!!! I did not waste my time becoming couch potato...I cleaned my wardrobe, re-arrange my clothings, sew my pants, add beads on one of my long-time never use top, wash and iron my clothes.

Oh yah, finally start bit of exercise.. I put on 3kg!!!! oh my gawd!!!! this is my heaviest!!!! I am 48kg!!!!!! Cannooottt!!!!!!! I look horrible... as you know, the problem is on the stomach and thighs. Why cant the extra fats go to my breast!!!! AARRGGHHHhhhhhh.....

Tomorrow, is a working day.. Oh how lazy I can be....

I Miss You

how to tell that someone that you miss him

really really miss him...

no, he's not my bf, he is one of my guy friends

the guy friend, whom i have known for 11 odd years

the guy friend who always make me laugh

whom I will always feel safe with

whom my mentelness,

my manja-manja

my extremely splurging urge

will be there upfront

even though how hard I try to deny it...

but..knowing me that well...

siigghhhhh

after seeing him for that just brief moment

makes me sad,

sad that, after all these years,

our friendship was 'rocked' by slight quarrel

sad that, I have apologised, numerous times

wished him happy birthday

wished him merry xmas & new year

but no reply from him....

but I'm glad...

because seeing him just now with a girl by his side...

looking happy

I feel HAPPY for him too

I really has the urge to call him now

to talk to him

to have the friendship again, as before...

I REALLY MISS HIM

TRULY DEEPLY MISS HIM

mood

my mood has not been that good since last week, though i always have an upfront look of being OK..... it cannot be PMS .. and why are we, like so fast in blaming PMS???
i'm not a whiner...but when really in need, then i say out what i felt....its not listening ear that i got...
here i am, feeling a need to share, no one seems willing...its not as if i asking you to share my burden.. please lahh...i'm not that kind of person...
all these years, i heard people say middle children tends to be independent or anti-social etc...the truth???
no one bothered about them!!!! they are either busy attending to the elders or the youngers.. the middle??? "oh they can take care of themselves" "see how independent they are"
well what do you expect!!!!
how hard you cry or how hard you try, no one SEEMS TO CARE..they only start caring when you FAILED!!!!!

FINALS in Bangkok

the game started started smoothly....
thailand fans had gathered outside the stadium; no tickets..my gawd!!! there are plenty of them, stadium was packed with 40,000 of thai fans and less than 100 fans for singapore
first 10mis, Singapore had scoreD!!!! but the linesman said its offside.. WHAT THE HELL was that!!!!! it was not offside!!!!now, Thai is leading by 1 goal.. Singapore!!! please buck up!!! Dont dilly dally sooo much... dont crash NOW!!!!!
64th min - Alam Shah should have kick harder!!!!! we would have the equaliser alreadyyyyy...aarrgghh... go Lions GO!!!!!
what a saved by Noh Rahman!!!! if not, its gonna be a tough time for Lions to catch ...
81th min - Khairul Amri scored!!!!!what a goal man!!!!!-
no.14 from Thai is cute looking...S. Nutnum
whats up with no.7, D.Thonglao????He has been very very very damn aggresive!!!! Hes like so damn angry...in the end, he's ok..He 'talked' to Baihakki

94th min SINGAPORE WON!!!!!

we are the CHAMPIONS!!!!!!