emotional

dont know why... yesterday night i was feeling so emotional..
was watching "Tentang Cinta" ... i watched because of the theme song :0) but they didnt played it in full...
sigghh....
was remembering of my past relationships...
was remembering of my friends....
took out a notebook... which was left hidden... i wrote about how i felt over the last break-up...
in it, there was few entries that were written years back, as in year 1999... in it, a friend mentioned of suicide !!! true enough, it happened two years after that... oh my!!!! at that time, i can still keep my calm and try all means to get him back to life....not many people knew of this...decided to ask him out for dinner and to really talk ... guess both of us didnt really had a good talk... i was with a boyfriend and he just got heartbroken... he made a wall between us...
but now... both of us are good...
yesterday, i really had a good cry.. thank goodness my eyes were not SWOLLEN.. otherwise, i have to get out of the house... :(